Returning to The “Who” Of Our First Love

The Song of songs, which is Solomon’s” ~Song 1:1

The Song Returns Us To The Who Of Our Spiritual BeginningsHistory tells us that King Solomon was known for writing 1005 songs.[1] But incredibly, the only one knowingly preserved unto this day is called the “Song of songs!” Obviously, this makes it very important. In Hebrew, the term “of” is superlative, emphasizing preeminence and choiceness. Other examples are: “King of Kings” and “Holy of Holies.” What this means for us, is to pause, and here consider the life-changing implications of treading further. How would it feel to suddenly come upon a door that reads, “You are entering a sacred place. This is the Song of Heaven itself”? This is essentially what the first part of verse 1 is communicating.

What is YOUR experience with the Song of Songs?

I believe anyone starting off on a journey of faith knows, deep down, that the “Song” is uniquely special and useful for their spiritual life. But unfortunately most don’t have the tools to properly understand it. When I was a young girl, I remember reading the Song in secret, and how it ignited desires in me for what was spiritually possible in my love-relationship with Christ. But being in a strict religious environment, I didn’t have a mature place to talk about the details of sex, let alone a book like the Song of Songs! So it was largely something that I “put on a back burner,” while meanwhile pursuing a more intellectual and dispassionate approach to studying the Bible.

I once heard it said, that a newborn’s spiritual journey begins with a revelation of a “Who.” The simplicity of this newly awakened love is pure and unadulterated. Then as we begin to mature, we take more of an interest in the “What’s” and “Why’s” of our beliefs: What do we believe in? Why do we believe them? This often takes us down more religious/church paths, as we seek out people to teach and guide us. But sadly, more often than not, a relationship with Christ is taken for granted. A revelation of spiritual family is replaced with “church” family, and we fall into pursuits and distractions that are non-intimate by nature: even good things “about” God, but that somehow leave us destitute of a truly meaningful interaction with the “Who” we were once in love with.

This has worked itself out in history, too. Listen to this quote:

“Undefiled religion started off in Palestine as a Relationship,
traveled to Greece where it became a Philosophy,
traveled to Rome where it became an Institution,
traveled to Europe where it became a Culture,
and then to America where it became a Business.”
– unknown

I believe we are in a time of history right now, revealing a remnant of people who are no longer wandering in this wilderness, but instead focused on the “Who” of their first love. They are weary of never-ending opinions on politics, philosophy, and culture. They have shed the garments of dead religion. And they have repented of their fearful wanderings – returning with a whole heart to truly be a part of God’s “intimate Kingdom.”

It is for this remnant that the Song has been locked for, waiting to be released!

My prayer is that in the days ahead, I/we will be aware of any remaining reservations to fully entering into this deeply submitted, and fruitful love-relationship that we were born for.

He taught me how to sing the latest God song,
a praise song to our God.
More and more people are seeing this:
they enter the mystery,
abandoning themselves to God.
~Psalm 40:3

[1] 1 Kings 4:32

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Take Me Back

I woke with a beautiful song in my head today; one that I must have heard on the radio at some point. It was called, “The Night We Met.”  I then heard a quiet and inviting Voice saying, ”Take Me back to that night.”

And something arose in response. “Really, Jesus? You want to go back there? To remember that night?”  The fact is, certain life-changing memories are painful to remember. And yet these same memories (which some would call, “dark nights of the soul”) are also very precious. 

What followed this internal conversation was a creative writing (below); one that combines the possible dark nights of two biblical women…the Shulamite in the Song of Songs, and the “Desolate Woman” in Ezekiel 16: 4:4-14.  Both are metaphors of God demonstrating His tender mercy for us when we are a particularly vulnerable and broken time in our lives. 

In Love,

The Night We Met

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I was hiding under my favorite apple tree when you found me. Naked, except for the thin shawl wrapped around me, I was too destitute to soak the blood of menstruation dripping down between my legs. In the fragile comfort of the moonlight I laid there and cried myself to sleep, trying to forget the hurtful words of my brothers. When I chose to go into their care after my father died, I had no idea how hard I’d have to work for them in their fields, making them profit, while neglecting the vineyard my father gave me as a gift. Such a beautiful place my garden once was. But now it lay a jungle of weeds, and a habitation of wild animals.

But then I woke to see the shadow of your form in the early morning mist, and heard you whisper, “Don’t be afraid.”  I sat up in my blood, embarrassed and ashamed to look up at you, noticing only the bottom of your robe with its tassels of royalty and wealth. You reached down and pulled me up, and as soon as I looked in your eyes – I knew who you were. In my weakness and fear I could not stand, but instead collapsed in your arms. You then took me away into your tent, where you risked your reputation to feed me, bathe me, and clothe me with a beautiful embroidered robe.

The tears flow freely now as I replay that night. And how you ever so gently pledged your love, and made me your wife. You saw my beauty through my dirt, and my worth through my desolation.

Your desire was then, and always will be, for me.

What amazing love!

“But then I will win her back once again. I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her there.
 I will return her vineyards to her
 and transform the Valley of Trouble into a gateway of hope.
  She will give herself to Me there,
 as she did long ago when she was young,
 when I freed her from her captivity in Egypt.
 When that day comes,” says the Lord, “you will call me ‘my husband’ 
instead of ‘my master.’”
~Hosea 2:14-16